siiky
2022/08/21
2022/08/21
en
I just read these posts by ew0k and really they hit the spot... Added to the reclog of today.
It's just that I have all these ideas that I'd like to deliver on.
But at the same time I have neither the time nor the energy to take any of them on, frankly.
You'd think I'd learned by now, but no.
Stuck in a loop, having a hard time breaking out.
There's never time. Maybe you feel like you'll have time, so you start something today. It'll just be a few hours this week and then it's done.
I could quote almost the whole thing verbatim in here and just say "this ^".
I can relate 100% with them. I'm like a squirrel chasing new nuts every 5 seconds, almost as if the nuts I catch rot by the touch. It's completely irrational to take on so many things simultaneously, and yet, here we are. I have more than 4 ongoing books for some reason. I haven't read a single word of any of them for the past... 2 weeks? Maybe more? Shiet...
I'm honestly surprised I've been able to keep at it on the Petri nets. Fingers crossed it continues that way because I think they'll be key to getting some new doors open.
And the cherry on top: all the while I feel bad for putting other things to the side (in no particular order):
The list could go on and on for a really long time. I have literally hundreds of tabs open on Firefox of things that I at some point wanted to read but didn't have the time at the time. To put it in scale: I use one of those sidetabs plugins; the scrollbar is about the size of a tab; one screenful of tabs is 29 tabs; so I have roughly 29²=841 open tabs.
(BTW ew0k, in case you read this, some of the links in those pages seem to be broken)